This site is the latest iteration
of my site which started in late 1995. I started the site as a repository for my thoughts as I was in the process of ending 22 years as one of Jehovah's Witnesses.
As I compiled and shared my thoughts on earlier versions of this site, I received - and still receive - a fair bit of email from active, exiting and ex-Witnesses who had many of the same thoughts that I did.
Now please don't take me wrong, or immediately write me off as a raving apostate. For most of the years I was a Witness, I thoroughly loved it and enjoyed it. I was convinced that it was Jehovah's visible, spirit-directed organization. I learned a lot of good things as a JW. I learned a lot about the Bible, I learned to teach and to speak effectively in public - skills which certainly stand me in good stead today.
But as I served as a pioneer and as an elder, I began to realize things about the organization that were troublesome. I began to see that we were not raising up spiritual people, but organizational people. It also began to dawn on me that much of the training I was receiving as an elder had more to do with protecting the considerable assets of the Watchtower corporations than it did with helping my brothers and sisters.
For a while, I tried to teach around the things I realized were wrong. But, as time went on, I was left with less and less that I could teach with a clear conscience. At that point, I stepped down from being an elder. Then, over the next couple of years, I attended fewer and fewer meetings.
For the whole story, please read the letter that I wrote to my Witness friends at my letter.
At this point, I have found that there is not only life after being a JW, but there is "abundant life" in Christ. While I was a Witness, I was sure that we had a spiritual paradise that people in Christendom could not appreciate. But since leaving Jehovah's Witnesses I have realized that it is not about religion, but it's about relationship. I now enjoy a relationship with God that I could not have as a Jehovah's Witness. In fact, when I sent out letters that told my old Witness friends of my new relationship with God, the elders wanted me to face charges of apostasy.
I wish I could convey to my old Jehovah's Witness friends how wonderful that relationship is. I wish I could get across to them the shallowness of what we thought was so deep, the insignificance of what we thought was so profound. I wish I could help them see that the Holy Spirit is not confined to one organization headquartered in Brooklyn or Patterson, New York. I wish they could see how applicable Revelation 3:17 is to the Watchtower organization:
Because you say: "I am rich and have acquired riches and do not need anything at all," but you do not know you are miserable and pitiable and poor and blind and naked, ... ".
To those ends, the purpose of this site has evolved from just being a place for me to record my thoughts to the following:
- To honor God
- To reach out to Jehovah's Witnesses
- To educate, equip and encourage Christians to witness to Jehovah's Witnesses
If you are one of Jehovah's Witnesses, please consider the contents of this site carefully.